Listen, Queen, after four children my husband and I decided that we are officially done. I got my tubes tied and honestly, it was the worst thing I ever did! I thought we were being responsible, but it turned out bad for me.

What happened???

I’m having hot flashes!!!! That’s what happened. At first, I didn’t realize what was happening. My husband said I was extra spicy and I was hot when no one else was. I was so heated one night I stripped down to nothing opened a window with the AC on and I was crying because I was experiencing hell on earth.

My husband said…’you going through menopause, eh?’ I think that’s the worst thing you could tell a Caribbean woman. I was so mad at him! How could a 33-year-old woman be experiencing menopause-it couldn’t be right? But night after night I was hot and heated and I couldn’t understand what was going on.

One day my husband and I were watching an interview with Tamela and David Mann on the Breakfast Club. Mr. Mann started talking about how Tamela acts when the ‘hot flashes’ kick in and it sounded just like what I was going through.

I cried because I couldn’t understand how or why. I prayed and the Holy Spirit revealed to me that tying my tubes had effects that couldn’t be seen but I was now experiencing the reaction from my actions.

God opens and closes wombs, I should have enough faith to believe that God knows what’s best for me. He knows how many children I can bear. He knows what I can take better than I.

Before I got my tubes tied my husband and I would have sex and nothing would happen, in fact, I got pregnant with my third daughter on birth control. So I do believe that God is able to open and close our wombs especially if we are submitting our lives to him.

Now, I have never been on the pill, I have taken the depo shot but that would be in my system months after its expiration. After I found out that the depo takes away our calcium I stopped taking it because I can’t afford the calcium.

So, what’s a woman to do?

If you aren’t married-just stop having sex. If you are married you are under a godly covenant and I would make my petitions known to Christ but I would end the prayer with not my will but your will be done.

God didn’t give us the spirit of fear but of love power and a sound mind. The fact that I was fearful to conceive again tells me that I wasn’t operating in his spirit.

I think we forget that he is concerned about everything that concerns us. We are so caught up on what we see, that we forget that what we see is temporal and has the ability to change.

After Rachel had her two destined sons she died.

After Leah, had her seven children her womb was shut up.

After Sarah, had Issac she conceived no more.

Our lives produce based on purpose. After you have conceived your purpose then no more children will surface.

Should Christians use birth control? In my opinion- let Jesus be a birth control pill.